WeekPost#2 - Highlight of the week. Piano Master Class

So, I reckon this week passed really fast. Seriously, September just started, how can this be mid September already?!

Anyway, im gonna talk about the master class I had this morning. That was really useful yes, but I had the most embarrassed moment on the stage today. I dont know what happens to me, I was just completely blanked when I was playing until the middle of the piece. Like no kidding, completely blank. I always believe this is the scariest thing a performer could be fear of and it just happens on me TODAY! IN FRONT OF SO MANY TEACHERS AND STUDENTS! [A master class is a lesson that held in a hall in front of all the teachers and students, and the doctorate pianist come and teach you. For this one, each lesson is 30 minutes long]

For your information, entrants for the young musician competition have to be at Grade8 or above, I probably mentioned this before. And according to my teachers, the chances of Grade 8 getting into the final is like really really hard. She didn't really say that but I can see that by myself since I have been through this. Most of the finalist are student taking performance certificate, A.T.C.L certificate, or better than that. To be honest, as a Grade 8 player playing in the competition, that just make me feels like a 7 years old girl trying to beat a 12 years old. That is how I feel after the competition really. Well, is not like non of the Grade8 cant get in but the probability of us getting in is really low. [Like when they fail to play it?] A few people that I thought will definitely get in to the final before, they didnt get in, that really surprises me. Me and my teacher talked to one of them, she says she is doing A.T.C.L.

Back to the topic, yea I got lost in my music. I was really nervous before, and I got even more nervous when I got lost. I feel really embarrassed, really off putting AGAIN! But everyone just try to make me feel better after that! Make me feel even depress. :(  I must be looking really sad and depressed on the stage (well I was) cause the first thing Doctor Neil comes up and says is. "That was good, that was good" with that kind of trying-to-convince-you-face. But obviously that was really bad and I know it wasn't good at all! Im really not satisfied with myself with today's performance. The lady that organise this master class did talk to me too, says "Keep up the good work." and "Forget all the bad moment just remember the good one. You did well". Also, Cara [my teacher] says, "you are such a brave girl doing all these competition and the master class" and she thanks me for doing it which I don't know why she did. hmm.... (wondering still)  Anyhow, I smiled and thanks for all this compliment when my tears is just 5mm away from my dropping down my eyes. I am really sad, I am really embarrassed, I feel really sorry to Cara as well. Sorry..

I talked to Naki when I get back. I told her everything that happens and she says, "well, now you get a bad experience and that is good, cause you can learned from it". Yea, not only good experience is important but the bad as well. Good advice! Thank you Nahyun! :) I appreciate the comments and compliments that I get from the master class. But sometimes you need someone to tell you something different like that. I don't know if you know what i'm on about but yes!

Nahyun then tell me this later. "You know what, I read a book last time, and in there they say. Every time you did something embarrassing, people will laugh at you at that moment but they probably forget about it 5 minutes later. And you will always be the only one keep thinking about it."

Lastly, thank you so much to Dr. Neil for the advises on my pieces. I learned a lot from it. :)

Oh, also, one good news. I got a higher mark on my trial piano exam this time! YAYYYYYYY!!!

Week Post #1
This is a really busy week compare to the other 7 weeks of term 3. Busy everyday with school work and piano. I feels like I'm a robot sometimes just working constantly on the same thing. Morning to afternoon go to school, and after school piano practices and homework.

The main things I really stress about this week is piano. Wonder why I am still stress about it since the competition is over? I have been having a few trial exam for piano already. I thought I'm improving but this week I got a very low mark and that makes me super duper depress. It just make me feels like this is still so far away from my own target. I want to get distinction. I don't wish to get it, I want to get it.

I like piano. I really enjoy playing it. But, it just feels like too much at the moment. Last week, I practice like a machine for the competition and yea I can see the result myself. I didn't win but I did improve a lot., on speed on techniques. I really does feel happy after last Saturday. I love performing.

However, I didn't feel any little bit of relief. Yet, I am feeling more stressful comparing to last week. I don't know why. Maybe because of the grade8 exam coming up soon? As the day getting closer to the exam date, she is getting more and more tougher on me. And that makes me just feels so so so tired. Remember the award that I got? A teacher recognition. I tried really hard to get it but sometimes, I don't think I deserve it. I don't know. Maybe I should think more positively? I don't know, I am really discouraged by the result of my trial exam this week.

I need a break, from piano, but I know, this is not the time..

-five more weeks of school in total.
-six more weeks or less for piano exams.
-nine more weeks for NCEA exams.

又一段远距离的爱情
结束了

WeekPost#2 - Highlight of the week. Piano Master Class

So, I reckon this week passed really fast. Seriously, September just started, how can this be mid September already?!

Anyway, im gonna talk about the master class I had this morning. That was really useful yes, but I had the most embarrassed moment on the stage today. I dont know what happens to me, I was just completely blanked when I was playing until the middle of the piece. Like no kidding, completely blank. I always believe this is the scariest thing a performer could be fear of and it just happens on me TODAY! IN FRONT OF SO MANY TEACHERS AND STUDENTS! [A master class is a lesson that held in a hall in front of all the teachers and students, and the doctorate pianist come and teach you. For this one, each lesson is 30 minutes long]

For your information, entrants for the young musician competition have to be at Grade8 or above, I probably mentioned this before. And according to my teachers, the chances of Grade 8 getting into the final is like really really hard. She didn't really say that but I can see that by myself since I have been through this. Most of the finalist are student taking performance certificate, A.T.C.L certificate, or better than that. To be honest, as a Grade 8 player playing in the competition, that just make me feels like a 7 years old girl trying to beat a 12 years old. That is how I feel after the competition really. Well, is not like non of the Grade8 cant get in but the probability of us getting in is really low. [Like when they fail to play it?] A few people that I thought will definitely get in to the final before, they didnt get in, that really surprises me. Me and my teacher talked to one of them, she says she is doing A.T.C.L.

Back to the topic, yea I got lost in my music. I was really nervous before, and I got even more nervous when I got lost. I feel really embarrassed, really off putting AGAIN! But everyone just try to make me feel better after that! Make me feel even depress. :(  I must be looking really sad and depressed on the stage (well I was) cause the first thing Doctor Neil comes up and says is. "That was good, that was good" with that kind of trying-to-convince-you-face. But obviously that was really bad and I know it wasn't good at all! Im really not satisfied with myself with today's performance. The lady that organise this master class did talk to me too, says "Keep up the good work." and "Forget all the bad moment just remember the good one. You did well". Also, Cara [my teacher] says, "you are such a brave girl doing all these competition and the master class" and she thanks me for doing it which I don't know why she did. hmm.... (wondering still)  Anyhow, I smiled and thanks for all this compliment when my tears is just 5mm away from my dropping down my eyes. I am really sad, I am really embarrassed, I feel really sorry to Cara as well. Sorry..

I talked to Naki when I get back. I told her everything that happens and she says, "well, now you get a bad experience and that is good, cause you can learned from it". Yea, not only good experience is important but the bad as well. Good advice! Thank you Nahyun! :) I appreciate the comments and compliments that I get from the master class. But sometimes you need someone to tell you something different like that. I don't know if you know what i'm on about but yes!

Nahyun then tell me this later. "You know what, I read a book last time, and in there they say. Every time you did something embarrassing, people will laugh at you at that moment but they probably forget about it 5 minutes later. And you will always be the only one keep thinking about it."

Lastly, thank you so much to Dr. Neil for the advises on my pieces. I learned a lot from it. :)

Oh, also, one good news. I got a higher mark on my trial piano exam this time! YAYYYYYYY!!!

Week Post #1
This is a really busy week compare to the other 7 weeks of term 3. Busy everyday with school work and piano. I feels like I'm a robot sometimes just working constantly on the same thing. Morning to afternoon go to school, and after school piano practices and homework.

The main things I really stress about this week is piano. Wonder why I am still stress about it since the competition is over? I have been having a few trial exam for piano already. I thought I'm improving but this week I got a very low mark and that makes me super duper depress. It just make me feels like this is still so far away from my own target. I want to get distinction. I don't wish to get it, I want to get it.

I like piano. I really enjoy playing it. But, it just feels like too much at the moment. Last week, I practice like a machine for the competition and yea I can see the result myself. I didn't win but I did improve a lot., on speed on techniques. I really does feel happy after last Saturday. I love performing.

However, I didn't feel any little bit of relief. Yet, I am feeling more stressful comparing to last week. I don't know why. Maybe because of the grade8 exam coming up soon? As the day getting closer to the exam date, she is getting more and more tougher on me. And that makes me just feels so so so tired. Remember the award that I got? A teacher recognition. I tried really hard to get it but sometimes, I don't think I deserve it. I don't know. Maybe I should think more positively? I don't know, I am really discouraged by the result of my trial exam this week.

I need a break, from piano, but I know, this is not the time..

-five more weeks of school in total.
-six more weeks or less for piano exams.
-nine more weeks for NCEA exams.

又一段远距离的爱情
结束了